Black jelly beans is satan in candy form. 😖 the hell do they make it with?! Rat poison?!

Don’t Blame Yourself Anymore

My Mommy said something to me that validated something that’s been hovering over my head for years.

As I said on Twitter recently; I’m my worst critic; I’m very tough on myself about anything I do.

She said (& I’m paraphrasing):

"It’s not your fault for being brought up into this world and was dealt a bad hand of cards. It’s not your fault…"

I said to her that “I can’t do the things that a normal 25 year old can do because of health reasons”

Then she said in response:

"You’re depressed Jaé! You just said it. ‘You can’t do the things that a normal 25 year old can do". A normal 25 year old is out here selling weed, smoking & drinking, killing folks, having babies and getting arrested; that’s not who you are."

I’ve blamed myself for things I have no control over and wished I had control. I have to learn how to give myself some slack. I’m always spreading myself too thin, working 10x’s harder than those I know and trying my hardest to beat the odds and be a testament and show those who feel like they can’t make it through that they can.

The downfall is that you over-work and cause stress to yourself and do more damage that good.

As I keep saying:

"God works in mysterious ways"

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